A faithful attempt
"Write bad", while it definitely should not be an excuse, it is one way to move the ship along.
I haven't posted in more than 2 months, and it's mostly because of 'what's after "inner-peace"?' Everything within my facility seems so crucial yet insignificant. To do the things that I care about, I must go through the bland processes, and all I can do is to speed it along. Not to mention the things that I ponder about are beyond fiction, which is an indirect way to say incomplete... which is an indirect way to say wrong. For the past 2 months, I did write/start a couple posts, but just 30 minutes into each of them, I invalidate what I wrote/thought, thinking, "That's probably wrong, why am I stupid (lol)"
The titles to my unwritten blogs:
- The Unknown
- So much falls upon
- Excuses, excuses
I'm stagnant, and I have known it for quite a while. Time keeps ticking, but I just treasure my sane. And as for the blog, it is difficult to find a direction after "achieving" inner peace. After the season finale on the series, "Crisis on Infinite Philosophies", I have been trying to re-aim my efforts to adjust for my new attitude. As I took aim and took some shots, I have missed the target multiple times.
My first shot: If the baseline is to not die, I'm going to sleep 12 hours a day.
My second shot: If I am going to be stoic, I'll be content with my average.
My third shot: "I can't help everybody (everyone who asks for help)"
But continuing the quote, "sort of seems like you can". Ignoring the egotistical side of the issue, my fight song has deteriorated. I want to say that I have been stretched thin, but that is not true. As I figured in my last post, the solution is mental energy, but I gradually gave up after 2 weeks. I have the route, but not the fuel. Although I've been trying to get out of (or wrap up) the impracticality of philosophy, I feel justified to write this one last post on it to, hopefully, re-aim my outlook one last time.
I haven't posted for a while, and frankly, it's mostly because there's nothing left to say after quote-in-quote inner-peace. When things are put into the "global perspective" for a high-school student, no achievements, nor any "enlightened discoveries", are worthwhile to write about; conversely, the answer to any frustration or misstep is to just deal with it and let the lesson really sink in. These experiences of achievements and failures help one relate to the greater successes of others and understand how they did it. It comes to a point where one realizes that he/she is a non-typical typical, but unique, character. For the last year, I have repeatedly gone through the process of "I get it now!" as to why I live and what I look forward to, only to correct it again and again. The only thing I know for certain is that I will continually correct my viewpoint as long as I keep exposing myself to new stuff. Lately, after being exposed to algorithmic and computer system concepts that I fully understand but am not familiar with, I have been doing things that I think are the "right way", instead of "my way". And to persuade myself to follow through, I have justified all of it with "You'll thank me later".
Conforming to a standard while might force one to take a detour, gives us a path set by someone who has succeeded, or at the very least, has climbed the social ladder. In modern society, there always exists an inaccurate judgment on value, or more specifically, what things can actually insight change. Don't get it confused with personal values. This value I'm referring to is "what actually counts".
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It had been a day, and I stopped writing because I feel like I would be the last person to talk about the value of things. I'm 12 years younger than the average age of the world, with skillsets bound to writing essays, servers, and software applications. I sometimes would argue to myself that this is all there is. What is above the college academics and research, above the inner operations of Google, Apple, Pixar, TSMC, above the governing bodies of the world. I don't feel I am inadequate to say I have already gone wide if not far. While there's no depth to any of it, I feel like I have taken a glimpse into each of them.
Looking at these failed posts, it maybe shows that: outside of the topic of what makes me, I'm naive about the world. The only fortunate part is that I'm aware of it. And for this blog, "write bad" is the only way it could continue, unless I get enlightened overnight... Even just the last sentence, "unless I get enlightened overnight", is a sentence that I would have deleted if I were to care. I have left it in because every sentence in this post had been like that on varying degrees. (smooth ending) and.. cut. (This post is the worst, and this last paragraph has made it a self-fulfilling prophecy).
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